helpless, sad and frustrated,
lost in the neverending but ever returning process of search.
it says: back to start, new beginning.
each time it is getting easier, lighter and more common.
accostumed? may be! grown up to deal with? more likely!
getting familiar with the rules of the game.
getting closer to the secret with each brake down.
getting a better feeling for going back to start and try again.
it is coming, the solution, the revolution, the relief.
the fruition of my dreams approaches.
it seems like in not too far distance anymore.
the pulse is beating faster, vibrating, grabbing.
near the target, near home, near protection.
back to start and try again, the end is closer than ever!
